BLUE or GREY

recently my life has been a shade of black, dark dismal disgusting….
i know Ace is fed up with me and my insanity but its not all my fault.
im tired too cos its no fun having no job to do and being a real asshole all day.
every time ace gets his rocks off using his own hands i wonder how long we are gonna last.
shit i hate myself and i know im too far from being able to fix myself in a short time.

comparing

i was only comparing a few things and i realized i need to work on lots of things

the perfect family

some time, some day, some where ….. the perfect family may look like this. I wait for that day

too much sex?

You’d get accustomed to the dark mornings here after several months, it’s nice, chilly, dark, with the distant buzzing sound of mosquitos getting closer once in while.

And the buzzing continues or even mixed with someone’s snores. But who could it be? not you when you are fully awake.

Turning your head in different directions for a mere sight of the clock and you realize it’s no later than 4 in the morning, fuck , at least another 2 hours to go before life starts.

You try your best to stay in bed, sheep number one, sheep number two, sheep number three………..what was that jumping over the fence? A toilet? Gawwwddd is my bladder that full? A turn to the left and another to the right, yes it is, i need to pee and I can’t stay in bed another second.

Sorry sleeping lover boy, I need to go to the bathroom or else…. and then you realize you’re in a death grip, holy mother of Jesus, let go of me, or do you really want to sleep in a pool that bad?
You hear him murmur curse like words as you release yourself and like a rocket head to the bathroom…………. i so much enjoy sleeping naked or who wants wet pants?!

And you find the relief, shake the few drops of urine of your cock before bringing it under cold water, a few more shakes and it’s clean, you wipe your valuable cock on a toilet paper, throw it away, dry your hands on a random towel (i.e. you make sure its his towel) and head back to bed.

Another glance at a clock and only 5 minutes passed, tiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiickkkkkkkkk taaaaaaaaaaaaaackkkkkkk, twist, turn, more twists, one sheep , two sheep, …. two million eight hundred forty five thousand six hundred ninety seven sheeeeeeeeep across the fence and I’m still awake, what now? no more sheep left? ok, sheep come back, i need to count those with cocks, one sheep cock, two sheep cocks….. half an hour later, i’m all muddy and tired from lying on the ground and counting dicks……two million eight hundred forty five thousand six hundred ninety six cocks, what?!! you told me all the sheep were gay, so one cock is missing, huh? oh yeah, it was a minnie i didn’t saw it, poor sheep. I’m gonna save for its penis enlargement surgery.

And I’m still awake…………buzzzzzzzz, a mosquito………come here baby, let me see what you’re hiding there, ouch don’t bite.

tick-tick-tick, i can’t sleep and he’s still snoring. wake up lover boy……….. fine don’t wake up, at least hug me……….no? ok, i’m gonna cuddle. i turn my back and you cuddle me from behind, ok?
and I turn and wait, not a single move……… fuck! I gotta do something myself

to be continued

note: it’s 1 am in the morning and i’m heading to bed. I was thinking of writing x-rated but then I felt a tinge of jealousy cos some people admired Ace’s writing abilities, so I thought I could show the world how talented i am…………. and it’s all based on real life, investigated and explored under the very expert eyes of me!
I want my readers back, so leave me ideas pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

apology

I know it’s been a while since the last time i posted and even those times i posted it was limited to pictures and nothing else.

Not a word, not a story, nothing that made sense what was going here or on my mind.

I know I need to apologize to those faithful readers and I gotta thank Alex for his posts. He’s too gay and he will realize it sooner or later!

Anyway I’m gonna try my best to get back to where I was and even let those friends know what I was up to. (though some of ‘em already know :-p)

keep checking, i promise to stay with you for a while (or as long as i have scheduled posts packed and named neatly in my wordpress box)

love

Nate

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Happy Father’s day

Gay or straight, it really doesn’t matter at all when you are trying your best to be a good dad.

So happy Father’s day to those wonderful guys who thinks about their kids wherever they are and try their best to be there for their kids.

And thanks to those fathers who accepted their gay children and love them unconditionally cos it’s not important with whom we sleep, only the love remains.

Late happy birthday

Yesterday was my partner’s birthday. May be it wasn’t his best birthday party , at least for the first time we celebrated peacefully and together, I even made him a cake and to be honest it wasnt that great still it tasted good with all the love and impatience i put in it.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY Z, I LOVE YOU.

note: he’s very old now,34 is old, right?