Her apartment looked dark from outside that meant she wasn’t home so I could just leave her keys and my note on the table and vanish from her life.
I turned the key in the lock, it wasn’t the first time I was going there, that was the point of having her keys but this time my heart was beating so fast as if i was there to steal something.
The room was cold and dark but I didn’t dare turning anything on, I searched inside my pockets and found the good-bye letter written for her months ago to be given on the proper time and that was the proper time to me, we had gone too far and we had to stop it right there or I couldn’t live with that feeling of guilt any longer.
It wasn’t the darkness that was bugging me but the smell, her smell that was so toxic. I wanted to leave the place but I couldn’t, something was keeping me from going, I had to wait for what, I had no idea but I had to wait as if I was trapped in her trap and I could do nothing than waiting for the hunter to either kill me or release me.
I went to kitchen and opened a bottle for myself, then lit a cigarette and sat on the kitchen table where I could see half of the city from the window, nice view it was, a starry night.
I have no idea how long I was sitting there, at least enough to finish my 5th cigarette before I heard keys moving in the lock. I could hide behind a wall and creep outside without she noticing me but instead I just grabbed my letter and put it back in my pocket.
“Hi baby” she said without turning on the light. I saw her shadow moving towards her closet and then everywhere was in blinding light I had to put my hands on my eyes to avoid it.
It took my eyes a little while to adjust and when I opened them at last she was standing in front of me half-naked looking for her clothes, I looked elsewhere and actually tried to leave.
“Where ya goin hun?” she asked wrapping herself in her robe, “nowhere” I said as I changed my mind and went back to kitchen.
I still had the bottle in my hand as she joined me in the kitchen, opening the cupboard and putting 5-6 different bottles on the table.
“In the mood of drinking?” she asked with her husky voice as she opened one after the other.
I was feeling a bit drunk and I had to drive back home so I shook my head and went for the door.
“Stay with me, I’ll get you a taxi later.” she said filling her glass.
To the date I couldn’t figured out why I never said no to her, not the way I liked at least.
I took my previous position on the table and she joined me emptying bottles together and staring at the pretty harmless city underneath.Unfortunately my tolerance to alcohol is pretty high so I can drink a good amount before feeling anything and she was very good at making me drunk cos with her every sip I finished a glass.
“Gotta take a leak.” I said as I left her on the kitchen table. I found my way to the bathroom without any trouble, quickly unzipped and took my cock for a release then put it back where it was and went back to the room.
she had turned all the lights off except the bed lamps and she was lying on her king-sized bed with her legs spread giving me a good view of what was hiding behind her robe. She never wore bra or underwear when I was around that was her way and I never protested.
I took a quick look at my watch, it was late but not midnight yet.
“Gotta go, it’s pretty late.” I said heading for the door.
“Don’t sound like a wuss, I won’t keep you here for a long time.” she said almost moaning with each word.
I turned to look at her and she had her legs as far apart as she could and was fingering her cunt.
“Don’t yo want a closer look?” she asked matter of factly.
“I really have to go.” I wanted nothing from her and wished she expected me nothing.
“This is the last time, that’s why you came here, wasn’t it?”
If I could lie to anyone, she was never anyone so I just admit what she said.
“Ok, let it be the last time, now come join me on the bed like a little good boy you are.”
I joined her on the bed making no attempt to remove any of my clothes.
“what now?” I asked impatiently.
she took my hand in hers and put it on her pussy, she was so wet and I could smell the wetness without touching her.
“Fuck me, fuck me one last time.”
I tried to creep down the bed but she grabbed my hand.
“please, this is the last time I’m asking you for something. I promise to be the last time. just this time and you don’t have to see me again.”
“You know it’s impossible, we’re family. can you think of a good excuse to avoid me every Christmas and Easter?”
“We’ll be just cousins, that’s it.”
“I really can’t look into your dad’s eyes anymore, he’s gonna kill me if he finds out.”
“he will never know, com’on let it be the best fuck we ever had, let it be the last time.”
“why me? you can find hundreds of guys begging you for sex with that gorgeous body. can’t we just finish it with a kiss and go live our own lives?”
“Don’t make me beg you, you’re so hot I can hardly think of any other guy.”
“you don’t have to beg me. I beg you, I kneel in front of you. we should have never had sex, it was stupid, I’m so sorry but I can’t love you.”
She knew it very well that I never loved her, I couldn’t, she was never that great soul to share things with and though she was really beautiful I didn’t find her sexy cos my mind was filled with guys.
“Ok, a little embrace won’t hurt your gay feelings, would it?”
I put my arm around her and she pressed her breast against my chest as she leaned against me, holding her hand in mine.
“You know you could do a lot better if you didn’t leave home that early. Just think with the support from my dad you could have your own place without bothering much about work, studying in peace could make it easier for you to reach where you really deserved.”
“It was never my home, do we have to discuss this?”
” Ok, why you never tried to be nice to my dad, he’s your uncle, what was wrong with being straight? what’s so special about guys body that you cant get from girls?
Com’on tell me? what’s all this crap about male sex? you want it up your ass, ok I can give it to you with a dildo? what’s hot about males smelly body? or is it the hair  that turns you on?”
she put my hand on her cleanly shaved pubic bone, she shook with my cold touch on her clit.
“You know dad never hated you much, he hated your dad cos he got all the reputation and more money when alive……..”
“fuck up,ok? I give you what you want and leave.”
She could never fill me with lust but she was good at filling me with wrath, I had enough reasons to hate my uncle to fuck his only daughter right under his nose without him realizing and it felt so great, not the sex but the silent revenge I was taking on him.
I got rid of my jeans in a flash of light but left my shirt on cos I didn’t like her playing with my nipples.
I touched my soft cock and stroked it a few times but it had his own head and wasn’t really turned on, I need to think of someone who could turn me on; someone like my jerkass boyfriend who was waiting to meet me at the bar round 1 am and I didnt want to be late. I stroked my cock till it was semi-hard but it was still difficult to put on a condom.
“Fuck me rough, I’m on pills.”
“you’re not lying, are you?”
having kids with her was my worst nightmare, I stupidly trusted her and took her missionary, she wrapped her legs around me and made me thrust harder, I wasn’t even hard enough to give her a rough fuck. I tried to think of my boyfriend’s tight hole but she disturbed my imagination with her squeaky voice.
I pumped like a restless piston for over an hour, playing with her nipples every now and then. I was close to nowhere but she looked like someone enjoying herself, so I replaced my pretty-limp cock with fingers and started fingerfucking her, first slow and  with just tow then I added two more fingers and more force, she was moaning really loud and very close to her orgasm, I knew if I slowed down there was the possibility of having to start everything from beginning, I replaced my painful fingers with my tongue, horrible taste and horrible smell but she had to cum, I fucked her with my tongue without knowing where exactly to touch and luckily she came not once but several times and gave me no time to pull away my tongue making me swallow all her cum.
She looked exhausted so I grabbed my jeans went to the bathroom and puked all her cum and most of the drinks I had earlier and left as fast as I could.
Until that day I had never swallowed a female cum, I never did it again.

PS: This one really happened, I just reviewed some old memories for other reasons!

pps: I had a very bad feeling when finished and I know I suck writing something straight!