GOODBYE Heath Ledger

One of the most promising actors of the new century is gone.Academy Award nominee Heath Ledger’s death yesterday is stunning. With all the morbid attention paid to certain celebrities cracking up, he wasn’t on anyone’s radar.

The 28-year-old Australian’s death in a SoHo apartment appears to be drug-related. An autopsy is scheduled for today, but the full details may not be known for some time. Speculation now is frustrating.

Ledger was best known for his work in the 2005 film “Brokeback Mountain,” based on the short story by Annie Proulx. He played Ennis Del Mar, a ranchhand who spends his life fighting his love for another man (played by Jake Gyllenhaal).

Many in Hollywood warned Ledger that taking the part would be tantamount to career suicide. But Ledger, who had started acting as a teenager in an Australian soap, came to America in the short-lived Fox series “Roar” and appeared in such films as “The Patriot” and “A Knight’s Tale,” was ready, he told one interviewer, to blow up his career.

“Brokeback” improbably became a mainstream hit, a cultural touchstone for the debate over same-sex unions and a winner of numerous critics choice awards. Many critics compared Ledger’s work to Marlon Brando and Sean Penn. He was nominated for an Oscar, but lost out to Philip Seymour Hoffman, who played the effeminate titular homosexual in “Capote.”

Ledger nonetheless had sent a message to Hollywood: He wouldn’t be a star on its terms, he’d be an actor on his own. He most recently appeared in the film “I’m Not There” (now at the Somerville Theatre), an ensemble biopic about Bob Dylan, and had filmed the role of the Joker in “The Dark Knight,” a sequel to “Batman Begins” due this summer.

Stepping into the role Jack Nicholson immortalized in the 1989 blockbuster “Batman” would have intimidated many. Judging from pictures and early trailers, Ledger found a way to make the part his own and bring the murderous clown back to his roots.

Today one can only wonder what else Ledger would have accomplished, where his talents would have taken him.

And I already miss him

decorating the bedroom

for the related part read here.

After my encounter with Chad at the bookstore I hadn’t seen him in several months. Then one day while I was visiting at my son’s house Chad stopped by. I thought at first it might be awkward but it really wasn’t. Chad acted as he always did when I saw him and no one was ever the wiser.
Shortly after Chad arrived I had decided it was time for me to leave so making my farewells, my son said “hey Dad, Chad needs some help with his apartment getting things organized and some suggestions for furniture etc. I told him you could probably help him out”. My son knew that I was good at organization and also had a flair for decorating.
“Sure I’ll be glad to help if Chad wants me too,” I said
“You bet Mr. Z, I could use all the help I can get” Chad said with a grin on his face.
“Well let me know when is good for you and I’ll come over”
I then left and when I got to the car I thought to myself, what are you getting into? Is this a smart thing to do? I could tell from Chad’s last comment that he meant more than just helping him decorate. Well maybe he won’t even call I thought.
A few days passed and I was forgetting about what happened. Then my cell phone rang and it was Chad. “Hey Mr. Z – was wondering if you have some time tonight to come over and give me some ideas for my apartment?”
I knew I should come up with some excuses but I said, “Sure what time?”
“How’s about 8pm?”
“OK give me the address”
So there I sat in my car in front of his apartment building wondering what was going to happen. Should I be starting this with my son’s friend? What if he tells him, this could turn out to be a fiasco? But instead of turning around I got out of my car and walked into his apartment building. I then took the elevator up to the 9th floor and found my way to his apartment.
Chad answered the door and welcomed me in. His apartment was basically empty except for a few old chairs in what is the living room and of course a brand new plasma TV.
We made some small talk then Chad started asking me about what he should do with the apartment. Our conversation went on for about an hour, talking about chairs, window treatments the whole nine yards. I was getting the feeling that well maybe that’s all he wanted me for. I was actually feeling a little disappointed but then brought myself back to reality.
We hadn’t talked about his bedroom yet and I wasn’t going to approach it but then Chad asked if I had time to see his bedroom. Sure I said. We then walked down the hall and I was completely shocked when he opened the door to his bedroom.
The room was fully furnished and quite nicely.
“Wow” I said, “this is quite beautiful, doesn’t look like you need any help in here.”
“Thanks” Chad said “but there is something I do need help with” and with that he pulled me close and started to kiss me. Soft gentle kisses, his tongue darting in and out of my mouth. I felt the need to pull back but then I gave in and started to passionately kiss him back. We kissed for a few minutes then Chad led me to his bed.
Falling back on the bed we continued to kiss, our hands wandering all over each other’s bodies. Then Chad straddling me began to unbutton my shirt, rubbing his hands over my chest, pinching and rubbing my nipples till they were hard. He then leaned down and sucked on each one biting them gently.
Soon he was undoing my jeans and rubbing his hands over my hardening cock my jeans were down to my ankles. I pulled him up and started to kiss him again, hard passionate kisses our tongues finding their way in and out of our mouths.
Before long we were both undressed and now with Chad lying on his back I started to worship him with my tongue. I started at his neck, licking and tonguing him down to his nipples then down to his love trail finally reaching his cock which was now getting erect and dripping with pre-cum.
I worked my tongue around his cock head and down each side of his shaft. Onto his balls and then down his legs, finally reaching his feet. With his foot in my hand I started to massage them, his big toe then his other toes. Chad had perfect feet for a guy. Nicely manicured and smooth. His toes were long. Then I started to lick his foot and took his toes into my mouth sucking and licking. Chad was going crazy with me doing this.
After enjoying both his feet, I then proceeded up to his cock. Taking his hard cock into my mouth was so satisfying. I almost forgot how good he felt.
I then put my hands under his knees and raising his legs I was able to get to his manhole once again. Servicing his hole was delightful and tasty. Chad lied on his back enjoying being worshipped and serviced. Then he lowered his legs pulled me up and our lips once again met. We kissed for a few minutes, then Chad flipped me over and now he was on top. I wasn’t sure what to expect but Chad was no stranger I found out to making a man feel good. Soon he was giving me a tongue bath, working his magic on my cock and my hole. His fingers then exploring my hole first one then two. I knew where this was going.
Now I wanted him more than ever. Raising my legs far above my head I gave Chad full access to my hole. Chad quickly went down on me getting my hole lubed well for what was about to come. He then placed his cock near my hole and gently guided it in. My hole responded quickly and then Chad was in. His cock inside me, slowly fucking me, rocking back and forth, holding my legs high in the air letting his cock go deep within me. I was in ecstasy feeling his hard young cock servicing my hole. We fucked like that for a while then Chad wanted me on all fours. I quickly obliged and once again he entered me from behind. I was Chad’s slave. Pushing back on his cock Chad knew I was enjoying this and only fucked me harder.
We fucked in all kinds of positions that night and while he was fucking me on my back I came. Shooting a load all over my chest exhausted but I still wanted more. Then Chad’s cock started to swell even more, his breath getting stronger and I knew he was ready.
He pulled out of me and shot a load directly on my chest covering me with his hot creamy load, mixing with mine.
Then after cumming Chad once again smiled then lowered his head to my chest and started to lick up some of the cum that remained. He then shared the juices with me. Our tongues were now covered with cum and we passionately kissed. Hoping this minute would never end.
Out of pure exhaustion we feel down next to each other and drifted off. I awoke a few hours later. Looking over at Chad I could feel myself getting excited again but then I knew I couldn’t do this again. Getting up I got dressed, wrote him a short note and left.
Chad called the next day to thank me for helping him out with the living room and also in the bedroom. We both chuckled and we knew we couldn’t take this any further.
I think of Chad often but so far that’s as far as it goes.