beeps, horns, kisses, hugs and the night came at last.
“Am you ready?” i asked him several times before jumping in the car and driving west. my heart beat a lot faster than usual and his unusual relaxed expression made me feel worse.
“wait, wait. i forgot the something.” i shouted as he turned to Court street.
he pressed gas pedal harder and sped up. ” are you nuts? didn’t i tell you to stop this fucking car?”
he shot me one of his killing smiles that always shiver and shake my heart and body , i can hardly stop myself not to touch him.
“ease babe, you didn’t forget anything.” he said pointing to the glove compartment.
“ok, ease, it’s just another night, another party that’s why you are so excited!”
he didn’t say anything and i started scratching my nails trying to get rid of the shining stars on ‘em, stupidly they shined in a way that was annoying me.
“Nah, i like ‘em. can’t you just sit down and do nothing?” he stared at my eyes, bluer than ever they looked, i wanted to sink in his bluish grey eyes. i wanted no party, no cheerful drunk party boys and girls, no feast, no surprise, nothing. i wanted nothing but him, his touch, his kiss…
“can’t we just go home?”i asked impatiently as he stopped by another red light. Streets were more than crowded as if everyone wanted to drive me crazy.
“we will but later. we’re gonna have a long night.”he said without even looking at me.
i put my hand on his and he shivered slightly, he never likes those sudden cold touches of mine. “Ooooh, so cold you are.” he moved his hand and i pulled back mine.
Crowded, dark, hot, cloudy, humid, 83 was too much for the temperature and all lights were red as if everything was trying to torture me.her curse, her broken heart, her regretful looks were there to haunt me. i tried to close my eyes and think of the wonderful night we were going to have.
skid marks, screams, cries, shouts, blood. jesus everywhere was blood-covered like a blood rain fallen a few seconds before. what the hell was happening? i could hear the rain drops but it was still too hot, too sticky.
something wrapped round my neck and i couldn’t breathe anymore.
“Keith, Keith, wake up, bitch wake up and look at me.” someone was calling me for sure but he was too far, too far i didn’t care he was calling me. i felt fingers touching my buddy rushing around it. i tried to open my eyes but my eyelids seemed so heavy to move.
he did nothing than wrapping his arm firmly round mine, he was looking worried and i felt good at last. walking together hand in hand to our sorta-wedding-party looked cool but i had to stop him before entering the building just to make him smile.
“hey, look at idiot. just look at him. see? he’s fine. why dont you smile? i’m fine”
“sure you’re fine,ok , ready for the big night?”
i nodded and we went in. i was sure we were late and most of the guests were waiting angrily but i was wrong; just a few people had arrived, he left me to check everything was fine and i joined the party guys.
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it was a memorable night i can say and surely one of the best nights we were together. everything looked so perfect, the food, the music. everyone was happy though they said a “dancing part” was missing, well they could go home and dance on their own cos we had enough trouble convincing the restaurant manager to let us have our little gay party in his place.
looking at my past, the paths i took, the wrong turns and all those wrong and right deeds, i’m not regretting anything. everyone has his/her own soul-mate and they’re worth the trouble. i love him, he loves me and my little baby, he accepted us the way we are (koala bears he says) and i’m thankful to him cos i know it’s not at all easy to handle kids and their tantrums, but he does and enjoys it.
there are plenty of things in life worth fighting for. and for me he was one of those wonderful things i fought for and i’m excited to have him at last.
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Party notes and quotes
4 hours before the party i dressed my baby girl and took her to my granny’s to stay there for a few hours. not only she was mad at me for not letting her wear her party dress, she cried for not taking her to the party we were going. later when i picked her up asking how her night was, she said “bad. you dumped me.” ( i have no idea who taught her this word, if only she knew parents never dump their kids LOL!)
after the little argument i had with my ex, telling i had no right to have my sorta-wedding-party cos the divorce wasn’t final. i was sure she wouldn’t come. i was wrong and she had a little thing for me. she gave her wedding ring back to me probably thinking i would feel sorry and leave the party right then. she was wrong, i looked into my pocket and gave her the wedding ring she gave me. her look was the best thing i had tonight. yeah it was so selfish, so evil, so wicked but an eye for an eye and a ring for a ring.
shaking hand with my boss she cried:” oh my god, jeans and Ts again. don’t you have a suit?”
“it was boring if we both wore suits. he’s mr perfect and i’m the clown.” i told her before moving to the next table.
greeting all the guest, i met my homophobic co-worker i was sure i hadn’t invited and in fact he had given me enough headaches, my partner in life decided not to come to my office for a while. so without saying hello i asked “were you invited?”
“no, i saw your invitation note on Ms. X’s desk and i thought probably you forgot inviting me”
“ohhhh, i see. thanks for coming ….. then.”
later when he went to the restroom, i took my partner to that place too and i started kissing him in the best sluttish way i know, he ,being a good kisser, responded really well. and then i shouted” cant wait to go home, i really wanna fuck the legs off you.” and we left without looking at that poor guy; he shouldn’t had come to a party he wasn’t invited. (i was dying to turn back and look at his face, i wish i did)
one of my friends brought his priest friend as a surprise and it worked well cos i screamed by his sight. thanks to the priest guy, he came to our home, asked us to say the vows and exchange rings. i can call it a private marriage, it was as formal as possible without legalizing it and who cares when there ain’t much rights to enjoy as a married couple!!!
like many other newly got-together couples me and my partner had a wonderful sex time after the party. while i was trying really hard to put the baby girl in bed, he fell asleep, and i had to wake him up and undress him cos sleeping with suits is the worst thing that can happen to someone.
and for your surprise, i do my first and last HNS(half nekkid saturday) here
